too much to worry

i was adapting to my new life.
and i still do right now.

and tonight i broke down.
cause all the strength i pretended i had gets thinner each day.

i talk like the strongest lady of all when people ask.
though i know myself.

knowing myself, i would take super long time adapting to new occasions.
like the first semester of uni, how i didn't score good in exams when in fact seniors said first semester is the easiest of all.
and i regret that.

i know i would take long time to get myself comfortable with this scarce time i'm having.
but i tried so hard to amend that.
and i still will.

i raised Doa every now and then after prayer.
for the strength.
for speedy adaptation.
for that i'm given 'keberkatan masa' in my days.

i think the biggest problem is, i'm suffocated with the air in here.